you’re scum. now I’m seeing all the cracks in your seemingly perfect surface.
I’m getting so insecure about everything
you know I’m not down for that shit. the hell?
I got so used to liking someone that I feel weird when I’m not doing it.
nerds be gettin’ it in the hallways and I’m like T_T almost all my friends have boyfriends and I’m just like T_T forever alone. I always encounter people I don’t want to run in to and I pretend like I don’t see them and I’m like T_T sometimes I look at myself and I’m like T_T on Fridays I’m always with my family and I’m like T_T why don’t I have a life. sometimes I’m at the mall and I see all these cute couples and I’m like T_T I’ve never envied such a thing. I am 17 and my dad insists that I ride the bus (the fuck) and I’m like T_T this is so embarassing. Someone invites me to sleepover and I’m like T_T i’m not allowed. everyday I’m all like “yeah nothing can get me down it’s gonna be a goodass day” & my days are always some variation of shit so I’m like T_T porque
with each year of highschool i became more and more jaded.
I am like:
It keeps getting better and better every time I play it and I go like:
After a month, they play it on the radio and I am like:
I hear people singing it on the street and I look at them like
When I hear someone singing it with a wrong lyrics I am like
Then my friend approaches me to ask me if I’ve heard of that song he goes like
Feeling disappointed of him not being updated, I am like:
hahah happens ALL THE TIME !
the guy next to me is freaking me out ahahah. he’s all breathing heavy like he’s pissed off and scribbling black shit all over photoshop. the hellllll hahahha
-To maintain this good relationship with my dad.
-to be disciplined when it comes to fb and other distractions.
-make good decisions. Always.
-to let go
-to have passion for things I used to love doing
I’m getting there.
maybe it’s for the best. maybe God has something real good, better than anything I’ve encountered, planned for me later down the road.
goin’ to my happy place. Night.
damn, left and right. I was collecting my composure after that whole thing. then I turn around and kill everything with that guy. I should’ve not said anything and I should’ve not asked you. He fuckin’ hates me, & you…I still wanna be your friend but it’s hard. I don’t hate your girl, although it may seem like I do, but I feel so unwelcomed and incredibly oucasted around you guys. I’ll come around eventually, I promise. and for the last guy, silly me for believing that there was a reignited spark between us. Tsk tsk. I’m beat.